Fated Strife

Well went and saw the GI today, I gotta have bloodwork and urinalysis done soon (probably tomorrow) then next Wednesday (31st, 2 days after bday) I gotta have a colonoscopy done.. how fun! I am on 2oz of milk o’ magnesia every day this week due to my insides not being clear on the right side last time.. ugg..
I also updated my wishlist for my birthday.. added the final fantasy movie to it.. I still want my flat screen decent size tv so I can hook my puter up to it too and use my wireless keyboard and stuff from the bed.. I REALLY want the ffxi for ps2 lol
I gotta potty then go to bed.. *sigh*

Well as I promised here are pics of the shelf and desk as they are currently (*STILL* not finished, far from it..) I get to throw me a matress on the floor for tonight I believe.. hope no spiders are crawling around *shudders* gahh.. anyways..
New TV shelf
Computer desk

I noticed that the desk pic makes everything nasty and messy looking, I don’t happen to see that personally but that pic makes it look disgusting
[edit] Ewww.. I just magnified the picture, that is nasty looking, though the stains on the wall are water stains from where the roof leaks (glad I moved my bed hah), next project after I get some room up here is to paint, lovely lovely.. I’m still deciding on colors too..[/edit]

Now I have to find a pic of me smiling for Gina lol, seems I am never smiling in my pictures as she pointed out haha

Well this week has been unpleasent to say the least. Slept all day yesterday, got up after Steven called and played a bit of FFXI and watched M*A*S*H. Today I had planned on getting up early since I had a doctors appointment, apparently the doctors office cant check their messages NOR answer the phone, so today’s appointment was missed.

Got up about 3 or so and called Steven, he had to stay off the phone cause his friend was coming over to help him with homework and helped him with a level on Halo. He finally called me back about 730-8 or so. Talked to Gina and Laurie, Gina wrote this nice poem for me on her blog

Mother and I went to Home Depot so I could get me a shelf unit for my tv and game systems and such. The box weighed right under 130lbs.. fun fun. *Finallly* got it assembled and everything moved over to it, I’ve got some pictures to post of it shortly.

I’ve been depressed all evening, crying my heart out.. I just stay so lonely all the time it seems, I am happiest when I am around my friends and family though I dont seem to show it. I need help, I really think I do.. I wish I had went to the doctor today.

I gots to go now so I can finish moving some stuff and try to clean the room up so I can put my bed up and have a place to sleep.. *sigh* I stay weak all the time it seems, it wears me out even doing simple things like cleaning and stuff.. I wish I knew what was wrong with me and why I stay so tired and stuff all the time..

I run in the path of your commands, for you have set my heart free - Psalm 119:32

Nothing new as usual, I feel like crud right now, I gots to go to the dietition tomorrow morning at 10:45, how fun, all the way in johnson city.. worked some today, talked with steven some this evening, just doing my usual complaining and junk. Didn’t get a chance to talk to Gina, got on about 10ish on aol and waited but she didn’t get on =\
I just wanted to update.. also working on a weblog for the linkshell, it’s at www.blogomatic.net/ffxi I still have to work on the CSS and templates, I may do that quickly, dunno, wish some of my meds would kick in and knock me out.
I hardly have a bed to sleep on tonight, been rearranging the room and theres desks and junk all over right now and I had to take my bed apart to move some stuff so I had to throw it back togeather to sleep.. *grumble*
Building 429 - Glory Defined

There’s always a better way
there’s always a bridge that needs crossings
there’s always the straight and the narrow
the wide and the shallow
But I know that you’re guiding me
and the best is yet to come
You’ve given me hope for tomorrow
and I know some day

Chorus

Ehh nothing much, sick still, stomach hurts, didnt go to sleep til about 9 this morning and got back up about 3-4 talked with Steven for a bit and watch M*A*S*H, still got a few left to watch that were being recorded. *yawn* I feel like poopy, I gotta get off the computer in a minute too, I dont want to, talking to Gina=fun, happy, et al.

tis all..

What Creepy Anime or Supernatural Anime Being Are You?

From “Final Fantasy 7″
What Video Game Villain Are You?