sleepy soft dragoon white mage pajamas
Posted by: Brad in Final Fantasy XI, Health and LifeAs I have previously mentioned I’ve been having some difficulty in sleeping. For the past several years I’ve not been able to fall asleep like most people can. No, instead I lay here, my mind running laps, thoughts just flying through my head, brainstorming. Sometimes it’s not that though, it can be at times I just can’t fall asleep. No matter how tired I feel and how bad I need the sleep I just can’t fall asleep.
During the occasion that I do fall asleep and actually sleep for more than an hour or two, I wake up feeling exhausted, it tends to be difficult for me to actually rest when I sleep, I can sleep for 12+ hours and wake up feeling horrible and just out of energy.
At least once a month I’ll get my sleep schedule off, when that happens I can usually get it swapped back to me going to bed early (anywhere from 20:00-01:00) and waking up early (05:00-09:00), but recently it doesn’t want to go back. The medicines prescribed to help aid me in sleep (or to knock me out to sleep) have seem to lost their punch they had. I know eventually a body can get used to a drug enough where at the same dosage the effects it had when first started are gone. This has happened before but this time it just stinks. For example this weekend, Saturday I beleive, I had taken my meds and an increased dose (2mg, doctor approved) of lorazepam (ativan), this is roughly the equivalant to 10mg of valium. Most people 10mg of valium would put their lights out but for me it made me very very sleepy, grouchy, groggy, and moody… but I just couldn’t fall asleep no matter how I cleared my mind or tried to go to sleep. Eventually a few hours later I was out of it.
Last night I went to bed around heck 18:00 I think, had a bad migraine and just wanted it to go away, all fine and dandy, then I wake up at midnight, tried to go back to sleep but couldnt so got online and talked with Gina until around 03:00 when the “go to sleep” thing kicked in, so I obliged and layed here until probably 06:00 only to doze off and wake back up shortly after 07:00.
Anyways, got my tenncare papers filled out, signed and turned in. It’s not really going to help, it *might* delay me getting kicked out of the program a few days or a week but not much. Went by the home depot and picked up a nice little desk lamp. Uses one of those nice halogen bulbs that heat up damn quick, but with this light I can keep my room darker when I do need a light on as my eyes can’t take the brighter light strain all day long.
I played FFXI for a bit today, I started on the Dragoon quest, which eventually led to my Dragoon friend Tobias wanting to help and he soloed the dragon you have to fight to finish the quest, he had it killed before I was out of the inital cutscene 
I owe him a great big cheer and thank you for helping me with it. I hung around on the ls mostly and chatted, also Lestat and myself helped with a samurai artifact quest fight today, it was pretty fun too, at least I thought so, don’t know about Lestat.
That has pretty much been my day, I’ve got this awful awful migraine still, to the point where I cant stand to look at the screen much longer, it’s suppoed to be blowing in a big storm tonight from the remains of the tropical storm and on top of that my aol chat thingee is funked up so I haven’t gotten to talk to Gina or anyone on there today 
I guess that’s it for right now, I need to ponder some on doing a bit of a small redesign on my blog (this will bring in a feature where you the reader/user can select betwixt 2 or so different themes, which ever suites your tastes), might have to see if Derkhan will help me out some with the css and some xhtml stuff as I’m not very good at that stuff anymore and she just rocks with it.
Anywho I gotta go my head keeps falling down (which in turn causes my eyes to close) so maybe my migraine meds and sleep stuff will help me good tonight and let me sleep completely through the night and actually feel rested tomorrow… here’s hoping.
How deep the Father’s love for us
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasureHow great the pain of searing loss
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the Chosen One
Bring many sons to gloryBehold the man upon a cross
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed I hear my mocking voice
Call out among the scoffersIt was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finishedI will nost boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrectionWhy should I gain from His reward
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom
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