Fated Strife

Decided since I fell off the bandwagon on doing the unconscious mutterings that I ought to at least try to start them back up again, so here we go!

1. Complexion:: uh pimples
2. Teach:: Learn
3. Back to school:: Untrained teenagers behind the wheel = more wrecks
4. Months:: Years
5. Nominate:: Veto
6. Favorite curse word:: Piss
7. Concerned:: Worry
8. Better:: Worse
9. Escalate:: Moving up, increasing
10. Unveil:: Painting, Statue, Face

I didn’t get much sleep last night, I went to bed early and all but just kept waking up and stuff. Got up and got on ffxi for a tad and talked with Derkhan and helped Kionomi with their AF hands coffer and dark spark fight and helped Dhal with part of his samurai quest. Hung around on there some for awhile today but nothing really went on other than that. Talked to Gina on aol some too which was good.

Haven’t really eaten anything today, ate a few chips and some chocolate thing to make sure my surgar/salt intake was even somewhat. Just not really that hungry, plus with my stomach being stupid don’t really want any food getting to it right now though I could kill to go and get me something from the toxic hell.

I have been trying for two days to get this stupid light I have near the network rack and all to work, I had replaced the wires running to the plug (eventually it’ll be hardwired in) but now it pops the breaker if I plug it in (even when the switch.. yes has a switch too is turned off). Everything is wired correctly, doubled checked the switch and the plug but both are correct which leaves me with the idea that maybe a wire is broke somewhere that isn’t immediately visible. I’m going to try to check it out tomorrow if I feel up to it.

Mother is supposed to be over in the morning to do something with the phone company for grandma. I am gonna have her take me to the bank so I can get my power of attorney and living will notarized since I made some changes and all. Then I have to go to the doctor in the afternoon, maybe she’ll have some effexor samples I can have incase I run out and can’t afford the refill plus I have to get another Rx for it as mine has ran out, ugh ugh. Then Tuesday I go and see the surgeon that morning, I was telling Derkhan that I was going to take my Carbuncle plush with me when I am in the hospital hehe actually I think I am going to. Then Wednesday I get to have that nasogastric tube shoved into my nostril and down my throat for the motility test.. I really really hope the surgeon deems it not necessary and I don’t have to have that done.

Mary and Kim are coming up in two weeks so that means I gotta get my room cleaned up a bit and possibly get my desk area moved around some since Kim likes to use my computer when they are here. Also got some cable boots and fiber cable on the way so that means I can continue with my network upgrade, yay.

ugh, today was alright I reckon, I got to sleep last night.. err this morning about 5 or 6am for some reason just couldnt fall asleep I was beat but just couldnt get to the I’m out of it stage until later in the morning. Got back up around 11am and went out for a bit, hung around on ffxi some but hardly anyone was on, talked with Lestat some and apparently I missed Jen by 5 minutes >< figures lol

I went out and ate with Alice, we ate at the pizza hut and talked to Glen for awhile, then I hit up the circuit city and got me this neat rca alarm clock radio cd player thing! I love it as I can listen to my music easier than having to blast my stereo which is hard to hear over my fan but apparently the rest of the house can. While I was in there shopping grandma called to tell me that my rack was making a beeping noise, she even called it a network rack like it is which is cool. So I get my clock and leave and down the road from the light to go to my house theres a bad accident so traffic was backed up and had to go from 3 lanes down to using the middle median lane to go around it all. Got home and my smartups battery which needs a replacement battery at that had wigged out and was making the beeping, unfortunately I hadn’t had a chance to move the switch and such to another ups rather than the broken one but I did tonight. Got everything set back up and now my aol messanger is screwy, I can log on for a second but then it disconnects. How fun.

I got on the partially working ffxi and played around with lopey as my summoner and tried to level summoning magic some which I finally did and we also got our hawt sexy swimsuits for summer fest!

Emailed Gina and been listening to one of my favorite artists, MeatLoaf on muh nifty cd radio clock thing.
I am absolutely beat, no energy left, hopefully I’ll be able to fall asleep pretty quickly and get some rest.
I am trying to find some modules for my Corning lanscape rack tray thing, I also need to hunt down some decent fiber patch cables, always fun to do.

Bah. Today was mediocre, got up and got on ffxi for a tad, no one was really talking so sat around working on some server junk. Mother came up and fixed the cable bill and junk, we went to food city and such and came home. Hung out with Thomas some tonight, we ate at Plum Tree (the NOBLE Chinese resturant) and went to walmart. My gut it hurting now in a bad way but I am sure it’ll go away.

Got home late and Gina was away so we didn’t get to talk. I’ve been hunting some health insurance, which I might add is a pain in the ass. I am looking at BlueCross BlueShield of Tennessee trying to figure out what everything means but currently no luck. oh well I’m sure I’ll find something.

Updated the Gallery with some pictures and updated some plugins on the blog. fun fun

That’s it for now, time to pass out for awhile.

Well I don’t feel much like writing but I will a little so I can keep people updated.
I went to see Bobbie on Monday for the follow up to the bravo capsule thing and other stuff. The results were positive for reflux disease which we knew I had but this was pretty bad results for it. Unfortunately I was left with two options, one was to have surgery to repair my hital hernia or the other choice was to leave it alone. Leaving it alone would just leave me where I am right now with the reflux, pain, and other problems I have been putting up with for years. The repair if successful has a 95% reducing the reflux and associated things. If the repair isn’t successful than I’ll be where I am now. Third, I could become infected, bleed too much, etc which can all be fatal.

I opted to go with the surgery as it at least offers a chance to fix this some. Unfortunately we are scrambling to get this done SOON as I lose all my health insurance somewhere around the middle of this month. July 31st they quit covering everyone’s prescriptions so that meant somewhere near $250 or so for 2 prescriptions (my nexium for my stomach alone costs that much :sad:)

Anyway we are trying to find individulal health insurance somewhere around here so that I can at least be able to go to the doctor when I need to and to get my meds.

Other than that it’s been pretty dull and boring, I have to see the surgeon on Tuesday (9th), go and see Dr. Crawford on the 8th and go for an esophageal motility test (they stick a NG tube down your nose and some stuff like that) on the 10th. fun fun
Got to talk to Gina a time or two, not much though as we seem to miss each other or I am sleeping when she’s on and vice versa ugh ugh. I sent her a message on aol earlier but she was afk and I waited around for a bit but now that I am on the verge of passing out I can’t keep myself awake much longer.

Finished book 2 of Blade of the Immortal (which so far has kicked ass) and went looking for the 3rd (4th, 5th, etc) yesterday but couldn’t find them! pisses me off, guess I’ll have to look around online for some that are decently priced.

Printed out new copies of my living will and power of attorney today and got it filled out, I need to go and get it notarized tomorrow if my mom gets out which I think she is cause we have to go and get some stuff taken off the cable bill and such for grandma.

Nothing much going on in the FFXI world, just been doing some quests and such, got level 63 few days ago, got my opo-opo crown, did bastok rank 8 with lestat, ozy and some others.

uhh hmmm I guess that’s it for tonight, gotta pass out so I can get up early tomorrow and stay on my somewhat decent sleeping schedule.