Fated Strife

Well this past week has sucked pretty bad.
Did get to talk to Angel for a good hour one day, but some of the plans we had aren’t going to work right now and such but he says he still wants to get this to workout even if it takes more time.

Had to go to Sullivan’s office Wednesday for my iron shot but not before I started puking blood (again) so got in to see Bobbie and decided its upper endoscopy time. I was placed on clear liquid diet for Thursday to keep insides from getting too much hurt or something. I’m scheduled to have it done on the 4th of April at 6am. Hope it goes well and can figure out the source of the bleeding this time.

I spent most of my evening today in the ER again. Migraine got a bit out of control and was feeling pretty cruddy. Got back there talked to doc for a min he left, called my mom to come get me, they came in about a minute after I got the phone and gave me the shot (which isn’t like them, they usually wait to do it until your ride shows up). The Nubain/vistaril combo they give for those things actually make my pain worse. I’ve noted it several times and last time they said they would put a note saying no to nubain for me but they gave it to me anyway. Nurse came back in ready to kick me out and asked if it was any better, saying no it wasn’t she got all snitty and left. Waited and waited (my mom had been there 20 or so minutes by then) then she came back and gave me an injection of Dilaudid and promethazine. That helped a great deal, then the doctor wanted to get a CT done (just had one a few weeks back) since it was weird that it didn’t start helping the migraine (the nubain that is) so I had to sit there and explain it that it had always done that when they gave me nubain. Big mess, finally said I didn’t want the CT done and was able to stagger out and leave. That nurse’s hatefulness to not only me but to my mom also made me pretty mad, there was no need for her to have acted that way as we didn’t do anything to cause her any frustration, we were probably nicer than any other patient in the ER that night.

Oh well..

1. Groovy :: Awesome
2. Jealousy :: Envy
3. Watching :: Looking
4. Kenny :: South Park
5. Games :: RPG
6. Bread :: Daily
7. City :: Town
8. Stems :: Brain
9. Birds :: Mocking
10. Listener :: Good

I lift up my voice
to The King, The King of glory
I hold out my hands
to The One who is worthy
I long for Your presence
I long, Lord, I need Your touch

CHORUS:
come, oh Lord, and fill up my life
with the light of Your presence
this is my heart’s desire
oh Father, come and let Your spirit abide
I long for Your presence
this is my heart’s desire

I long to be washed
in the well of Your mercy
I long to be warmed
by the fire of Your glory
I long for Your presence
I long for Your healing touch

come oh Lord and fill up my life
with the light of Your presence
this is my heart’s desire
oh Father, come and let Your spirit abide
I long for Your presence
this is my heart’s desire

it’s my desire

(I wanna feel Your presence)
Lord, it’s my desire
(I wanna feel Your presence)
Lord, You’re my desire
(I wanna feel Your presence)
I wanna feel Your presence
I wanna feel Your presence
I wanna feel Your presence - Jesus

come oh Lord and fill up my life (fill up my life)
with the light of Your presence
this is my heart’s desire (this is my heart’s desire, oh…)
come and let Your spirit abide
I long for Your presence this is my heart’s desire

it’s my desire

Lord, You’re my desire
Lord, You’re my desire

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Missed a week or so of these but back on track.

1. San Francisco :: Train? California? Treat?
2. Sadness :: Depression
3. Spirits :: Souls
4. Harriet :: A pretty old tortiose
5. State :: of Emergency of mind
6. John :: the Baptist
7. Offense :: Defense
8. Timeless :: God
9. Account :: Bank
10. Refuse :: Decline

Well this week started off bad (so I knew it was going to stay that way the rest of the week.. then again all my weeks are bad). Monday I was scheduled to see my new doctor, that morning I got a call that he had to reschedule cause his wife was in labor. Understandable, ironically this is the reason I left my other doctor (canceled appointments once too many, was horrible about calling in refills when given weeks notice that I would need refills to be called in by the time my meds ran out, things like that).

I do however have an appointment on the 30th that’s going to go just fine.

Monday night I ended up in the ER, deep laceration to leg from sharp blade, got it stitched up (7 of em) and came home. Woke up Tuesday morning with blood all over leg and bed and it was looking infected (they numbed it up good thus the lack of pain at the time). Called Dr’s office about the bleeding and burning and they were gonna have me come in but sent me to ER (again) instead. Really nice nurse practitioner got me on some Bactrim DS and hydrocodone 5/500 and got me on my way.
Wednesday I got a call from someone at the ER asking if everything went alright and to see how I was doing and if there was anything they could do for me.

Otherwise, week has been boring, don’t get to talk to Angel much but what time we get to is always good.

Oh well…