Fated Strife

Well, where to start.

Angel and I finally got to talk after a week and a few days of not being able to. It wasn’t a great long chat but still was good to be able to have talked with him, though past 2 days were only messages as he had to do some other stuff.

Unfortunately though, due to some problems there he had to get the money back from the tickets so he won’t be coming out here, at least for now. We are still friends so thats a big plus as I was worried about it most of that week. So some prayers or mojo or whatnot for him and his family would be appreciated.

I finally got to shoot my Glock 38 that I’ve had for the past few years. I know, took me long enough. I was able to procure permission to shoot on some county property and it was pretty fun. The first shot, the shell hit me in the forehead but otherwise it was a neat experience. It didn’t seem to have much recoil as the Glock 32 I had. I’m going to try to take it shooting again sometime when I have more ammo with me, and not the $26 pack of my Speer Golddot hollow tip ones. Too expensive to be shooting those for practice when I have a box of 50 or so Winchesters I can use for that. I did have to do a bit of walking through the woods and such to reach the spot in 30F weather.

Mary, Kim, and Heather are coming up for Thanksgiving on Wednesday.

My weight is at 176lbs right now, which I’m surprised I got that low and am staying around that range. This seems to be a good weight for me. I could probably do with 180-190 but dont want to put all that weight back on.

I dont think I’m going to have any problem with losing more weight at this time due to some horrible stomach bug I’ve got. I’m not sure just yet what it is, I thought maybe something I got at Pal’s was contaminated with someone else’s sickness. Salmonella, C. Diff, all sorts of things. It ended up causing some abdominal cramping, diarrhea (which turned green tonight, thus the title of this post), I’ve had low grade fevers on and off the past few days too which may just be coincidence but never know. Feeling pretty lousy now.

Mine and my mom’s internet went down a few minutes ago, so I called to see what was going on. They said maintenance until 3am but it seems to be working now, so was writing this offline but may move over to the site and work from there.

My head has also been hurting quite a bit lately, more so than it had been. These head pains aren’t migraine class, but they occur in the same region as the migraine pain. Which seems to be frontal lobe area, right side. It is a sharp pain, exerting causes it to hurt too at times. I also still have the migraines which are relentless but I’ve been able to keep them under control some with more dark room no noise sleep.. or resting in my case.

To add to this, I have (as some others have too) that I have problems finding words or that I seem to get stuck on a word then lose my concentration. Which can be side effects of migraines from what I’ve read. I am going to have to mention this to my doctor as this is really getting scary and worrying me.

The stomach stuff is something else I really need to get looked at. (not what I mentioned above unless it persists for too long) The reflux, which at times can be unbearable, the dysphagia and odynophagia become a problem when trying to eat. I have done pretty well though after my last stretch and coagulation on my LES. I think this may have been the longest I’ve been without those done so I’m probably past due for the stretching at least.

I’m going to go to sleep before the Lunesta takes me out of it.

Tags: Angel, diarrhea, dysphagia, Family, friend, gastroenterologist, glock, Guns, heather, ill, kim, lunesta, mary, migraine, mom, pain, sick, stomach, sullivan

Well today was boring.

Didn’t get to talk to Angel and he didn’t get my message that I had to leave before he got on since he used MSN today instead of POL. Not been talking much anyway, hit a rough spot in our friendship I guess. Hopefully we can get things worked out and remain friends still.

I had to adjust the date and time on the server as it seems time likes to go by a bit too quick on here. I have clockspeed installed and such but just haven’t set it up to actually run as a daemon or such to keep the time updated. I need to find a way to do this with a service script for daemontools.

I got my auction paid for yesterday finally, when I went to deposit the check to pay for it, the ATM was still broke, but at least they were fixing it (I think) while I was there. One of the tellers there heard my cell phone ringing and identified it as Suicide is Painless from M*A*S*H.

I added a few more figures to my collection yesterday, or maybe the day before. They are Clone Trooper Officer (yellow) and Boba Fett. I think the Fett looks pretty good, I’d like to see one with a removable helmet.

I hope my Darth Revan and Darth Malak will arrive soon, it was entered into the USPS system yesterday afternoon, so should be going out tomorrow at the latest.

It’s been getting cold here, for awhile there in October it was up in the low 90-80s. Now it’s around 50-60 or so during the day. Last night I think it got down to the low 20’s. Here is a graph from 11/02-11/09/2007, the temps seem to always be off a few degrees. Currently my thermometer says for outside temp that it’s 34.2F, Forecastfox says 35. Anyway, pretty graph:

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I guess that’s all, I keep losing my train of though, didn’t realize how late it was, but I usually don’t notice when I can’t sleep. Though I feel exhausted and all.

Oh, I found out the latest job addition to the Wings of the Goddess expansion for FFXI..

Scholar

You can find out more here and here.

Also it seems that you be able to finally invite others into your mog house. Nobody to visit mine though I guess, though there is Cory who I’m sure would love to see all the junk taking up my inventory.

There’s an event going on now that is meant to bring in the new expansion. I used to have someone to do these events with, I may still do it to try to get one or both of the reward items. Maybe Cory will want to do that as well. Details on the event here.

Now, time to sleep.. I hope.

Tags: Angel, bed, boba fett, boring, cacti, clockspeed, clone trooper, clone trooper officer, daemontools, darth malak, darth revan, djb, exhausted, FFXI, friend, friendship, MASH, msn, playonline, pol, revenge of the sith, sad, server, site update, sleep, sleepy, star wars, tired, weather

The past few weeks I’ve been in some moderate pain. Basically my sternum down to the epigastric area (can refer to anywhere above navel to right below sternum but in my case directly below sternum), this pain can best be described by me as the pain I have after have coagulation performed on my LES (Lower Esophageal Sphincter). It’s done to tighten the valve there to attempt to keep gastric acid and the like from splashing back into my esophagus causing more damage. My dysphagia (difficulty swallowing) has just seemed to have gotten worse on top of it all.

Thankfully I will be seeing my GI doc in a few hours so hopefully we can take care of the pain and other problems as this is something I can’t have going on much longer.

Angel and I haven’t really been able to talk or hang out since December. So these past almost 2 months have really sucked. Just makes me sad that I can’t just talk to my friend or anything. We keep hoping things will get better and change but so far not much has. I know in a few months they will for sure though.

On a side note, I am accepting donations as you might have noticed (sidebar has a link to donate). If you decide to donate (doubt anyone will) you’ll be helping me keep my server going and this and the other sites I run going. Also this money will help me get a plane ticket to be there for an important part of Angel’s life. So if you’re so inclined to help, please do.

I had trouble getting to sleep so figured I’d write this and let my additional sedatives kick in so gonna sleep get up read my messages if I have any then off to the doctor.

A little something to keep in mind:

Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.
- 1 John 4:11-12

Tags: Angel, dysphagia, friend, god_lives, sedatives, sternum