Fated Strife

Well I’m scheduled for colonoscopy on the 30th of this month. I have to start my wonderful prep of NuLYTELY the day before (along with mag citrate the day before that and 2 more on the day of prep). They’re going to check on this mass like thing over in my right colon and to do my usual checkup to see what polyps have shown up since my previous colonoscopy. I very much dread the prep and I really hope it will be a good prep this time as the past few haven’t cleaned me out as well as it should, thus the extra magnesium citrate stuff.

I saw my neurologist (who is color blind I learned) last week, I am scheduled for EEG, and Transcranial Ultrasound on the day after my colonoscopy. I also have to have an EMG performed on the 30th of August to check for nerve damage and such in my legs.

I saw my Pain Medicine FNP Monday, she was the one who setup the EMG and also placed me on Zanaflex for my back and to hopefully help with the muscle spasms I have when I take Ultram (which they placed me back on). Both them and my neurologist are getting my Lyrica dose up to the maximum daily one for the pain stuff and the other is to hopefully prevent my migraines. We’ll see how that works as so far I’ve noticed no change with the Lyrica, migraines are still rampant and my pain is still there, bursts of it which is severe and it makes me want to vomit when it happens.

Angel’s mom had to go to the doctor the other day and is now in the hospital as some tests are being done. He’s been really upset by it all and I hate to see him upset like that, we’ve had the same problems that she is in our family so I’ve seen how it goes and I just him to know everything is going to be alright with it and with all this medical stuff available now she will be fine. It’s been stressful on him even more I’m sure, along with the school stuff he’s having to do.

We’re supposed to be able to talk on the computer today some, so hopefully that’ll work and we will, easier for me to talk that way, or at least to help explain all the stuff to him. So if you’re the praying type, please pray for his mom.

I went and saw Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix last week, it was a fairly decent movie, I lost my place in that book but I was near the end so I grabbed a copy of the Half Blood Prince and had been reading that the past few days. I finished it Monday and started reading the final book; Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. So far the book has been good, I know alot of whats going to happen but I still have to finish the book.

I guess that’s all, hopefully things will start to work out and things will get better soon.

As you may notice, the countdown timer is gone from the sidebar now. Unfortunately I won’t be taking my trip out to see Angel now as he’s got a lot going on right now. I was unable to get refunded for the tickets so just had to take both the losses. He said he’ll be out here to visit this year though after things settle down.

I can’t really express my feelings right now, there’s anger, sadness, frustration, just so many of them. But I’m looking on the bright side that he’ll eventually be out here so I have something to keep looking forward to. We did though get to talk online for about 2 1/2 hours which was a big improvement over the time we’ve only got to talk this year, also going to get headphones and mic for msn live chat since we got to actually speak to each other on there today but he borrowed the one he was using and I was using separate headphones and an xbox live headset which wouldn’t fit right in the mic plug on my laptop so I had to hold it there.

I donated blood today, this evening I’ve been pretty lightheaded, some nausea and feels like my heart is pumping pretty hard at times but it’s seemed to have calmed down some. I picked up my refills and new toothbrush and paste for the trip also. Otherwise just sat around until I saw Angel’s messages when I got back from the blood bank.

I went to pain medicine people on Monday, they looked at my MRI and all that junk and said not much to treat for my back at this time but they’re going to be doing a spinal injection on the 25th so maybe it’ll help.

I guess that’s all, don’t really feel much like talking or anything right now.